I leave for Cleveland Clinic a week from today. I learn more about migraines on a daily basis through study and experience. Tough stuff, no lie. Every single choice I make about what I eat, sleep, do or don't do, may or may not have an impact on how I feel the next moment. It's a bit overwhelming. The pain is wearing me down , bit by bit, day by day. I'm ready for relief. To make this go away..for some kind of healing to begin.
I try not to show the kids but I'm not perfect at it. I'm getting worried about being away from the kids and Kyle for so long. They will be fine...that's not it. Kyle can handle it all, will provide the kids fun experiences that only he can bring them as their dad. He has an amazing family to support him and us in this. My colleagues are feeding he and kids for the weeks I'm gone. But, to be away from the people I love the most and that ground me..... That's scary.
Some fun news.... My latest distraction and love is a black Labrador Retriever rescue named Annie. She's been with us two weeks now. She's 5, has some health issues too and has bonded with the whole family, but me especially. Where I go, she goes. When I hurt, she's there...black furry chin on my knee or hip. Usually snoring or looking at me with soulful brown eyes. I've had dogs my whole life. As adults, many of you knew Guinness and Scully. I loved them. But this is different...maybe because Annie and I needed each other. Or maybe it's just in my head. It doesn't really matter. It works for me.
I'll try and journal a bit when I get to Cleveland when I'm in the program. Til then, take care, and carry on.
K
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